Ken Ashcorp - In The Zone

It’s a song about, well, exactly what you’d think it would be!

Where I’ve been

Besides the odd post here and there I’ve somewhat disappeared online these past few months. There’s plenty of reasons why, but to put it simple: I needed some time off. I needed to get away from being constantly online, struggling with my art, trying to be noticed and on top of it all I couldn’t find a job and started to feel useless and brought myself down constantly. I’ve also taken a step back and been scared to socialize, trying to overcome that bit by bit.

I do want to make one thing clear, while I may have not been very active, I have still been checking out my friends accounts and I’m well aware of the events and important things that have happened in your lives. Just because you haven’t heard from me me doesn’t mean I don’t care. I know it’s the same the other way around as well, the older we get the more busy our lives become.

So what have I learned during my time away?

I’ve learned that I need to balance my life a lot more. I used to spend most of my free time either endlessly scrolling on tumblr or impossibly trying to catch up on youtube subscriptions. I couldn’t keep up with all of it, so I’ve halved about everything I’ve been following, leaving me with more free time to focus on other important things. I’ve been working on a simple schedule and respecting it and it’s doing wonders.

I’ve learned to enjoy the outside more. Walking our dog has helped me a lot, I take much longer walks with her now than I have before and it’s a great way to both empty the worries in my mind and fill them with positive thoughts. It’s also good for my health.

I’ve learned that it’s not always important to be important. I put too much pressure on myself both art wise and in real life. I’ve always felt like a very average person on all accounts and this constantly brough me down. Maybe I’ll never be that great an artist, maybe I’ll never be that important to some people & maybe I’ll never be the best. I’m starting to realize that’s ok. I should do things on my own pace and not compare myself with other people constantly. I’ve been trying to hard to be someone I’m not and I’ve lost sight of the real me along the way.

I’ve also learned that there are some things you can’t change and that’s also ok.

So with that all said, what’s currently happening in my life?

After a full year of looking, I have finally found myself a simple job, not as a graphic designer, but at least I have an income. This is extra important because this upcoming monday me and my girlfriend are getting the keys to our very own apartment. You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting to finally get my own place, it’s way overdue.

I’m taking this as a fresh start so once we’re all settled in I plan on being more active again, show up on Skype some more and catch up with friends again. I won’t be having internet there earlier than the 23rd and I do plan on slowly trying to find a good balance of being active online, so keep that in mind.

I’ve missed you guys, I hope you’ve missed me.

E3 2014 - The Legend of Zelda (Wii U)

It happened. Nintendo is making the Zelda game that I’ve had pictured in my head for the last 10 years. I can’t begin to describe how happy I am right now.

I love our dog, even if she’s a nutter.

Have I told you guys yet that I’m now a professional doggy taxi?

Have I told you guys yet that I’m now a professional doggy taxi?



How to Be Happy - Wheezy Waiter (x)

Thanks for making this series of gifs. I’m going to reblog it because I think it’s something some people need to hear and the gif is a mode of communication that will reach certain people who only speak gif. So here you go.



You just want to sleep

You’re staring at the ceiling. It’s been what, 3 hours now since you’ve gone to bed? You’re still awake. You roll around some more. You’re too hot. You’re too cold. You have to get up in 4 hours. You just want to sleep.

You start to think of everything and nothing. Random scenario’s pop in your head. Things that were, things that are, things that may be, things that will never be. Memories that make you happy, sad, angry. You think of people you love, people you’ve loved. You think about how you’ve changed. You think of small things, like a book that makes you happy. You think of big things, like the universe and how you’ll never really get understand it. You try to understand it anyway.

You think of death.

Your heart starts to speed up. You start to sweat. You start to panic. You try not to cry. You try to escape this thought. You just want to sleep. You don’t want to think about this. You hate how it just had to pop up. You hate how it catches you by surprise. You’ve thought about this before. You’ll inevitably think about this again. You just want to sleep.

One day the people you love will die.

You just want to sleep.

One day you will die.

You can’t sleep

You tell yourself it’s ok. Once you die you wont know it anyway right? You could not wake up tomorrow morning and you’d never know.

That’s true. But right now you are alive. Right now you do know and right now your desire to live is so strong that you refuse to accept you will die one day. There’s so many things, so many people that you love. You don’t want to lose them. You have many plans and dreams. So many things you want to experience. So many things you will never experience.

You just want to sleep.

You tell yourself that In the end, you’ll come to terms with it. It’s ok if you haven’t right now. It’s ok to be scared. It’s ok to feel this way. You’re still young. You still have a lot to learn.

You tell yourself you will live your life to the fullest. You will love and remember those who die before you. You hope you will grow old. You’ll be that cool grandparent. You hope you’ll be surrounded by the people you love once your time has come. You’ll be grateful for the chances you were given. You’ll accept death once it comes. But right now, you’ll live.

You start to relax and smile. You’re glad you had this talk with yourself.

You fall asleep.


Everyone shut up and watch this 49 second unaired clip of Whose Line where we see Colin officially lose his mind.

I’m pretty sure I’ve seen this clip like a hundred times and it still brings tears to my eyes.